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Who am I? I am a screwed-up blogger and an active blog reader since 2007. A soulful dreamer who believes that passion is life and a person who is looking for meaning, just like any other human being in this world. A super girl wannabe who is currently taking chances and chasing pavements, while keeping up with time and living life in general. This is me, and this blog is the outlet of my random thoughts. (^___^)
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In circles...
 Tuesday, October 23, 2007 @ 3:09 PM |
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Whoever said, "worries are just 'a piece of cake' for tough people", I agree. But can someone convince me about this right now because i think I can't convince myself any further. I never thought being puzzled was this hard? Hmmmp! It's as if I didn't go through something harder than this during the course of the 19 years of my existence in this world. But still I feel as if, well... so uneasy about the whole thing. Maybe you too are puzzled about what I'm talking about. But as much as I would like to tell you about it, I want to as much as possible, keep it within myself. You may be thinking I'm crazy. Well, I maybe crazy for feeling this way, but I never wanted to. Who would even think? I never imagined this to happen for the next one thousand years, talking as if I would still be alive by then.
I have always been very tight about my feelings. I always manage to conceal it ever since I learned how to. Nobody would know how I really feel if I didn't tell. But I have always been transparent when I am mad about someone or something. I keep it for a while, but then after some time, it leaks... much like air in that sense! I guess, if there's something that I've learned in life, it's that one can't keep what one really feels inside, no matter how hard you try to. I've tried that a thousand times before, but I was never successful. Much to my dismay, I always end up with regrets of "what-ifs".
"What if I didn't do that?"
"What if I haven't said that?"
or totally the opposite...like
"What if I did that?"
"What if i've said that?"
or maybe
"What if I never allowed that chance to pass me by?" (if that was really a chance?)
I've always lived with the statement, "I'm better off alone." Perhaps, It will take a long time to change this perspective, but nobody knows when that will happen, and the thruth is..I'm not even sure if it will happen.
Whew! I never thought though girls are prone to dilemma's. Haha! I'm just kidding. I just needed to humor myself. That's how life is. the tougher you get, the more problems you face.
I know reading this post would definitely give a headache to those who are actually reading it, and I'm sorry for being such a klutz. Hahaha! My appology for being so pathetic and for being so...whatever...you know the words! I just felt the need to rant today and to share my thoughts.
Hopefully, I'll be back tomorrow with a better post. And I'll be my old self again. I just hope everything turns out well during the "judgement day". It's adding to the bulk of my worries, nevertheless, I will be fine as long as I'll pass.
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The Blogger
Not a lot of people know (or would even understand), but I am also a victim of drama obsession.  I've been camping in dramalandia since I was 13 years old, and that's where you will most likely find me when I have nothing to do.
One of the symptoms of this disease is daydreaming about dramas everywhere whether you are at work, walking down the stairs, sleeping, even as you are walking...creepy isn't it? Hahaha!
I am also a big Asian music fan and I think Asian music rocks! I go back and forth from Cpop to Kpop and Jpop, so I may be different (and strange) compared to other people that you can find around.  I am an elder sister  , a dreamer  , a believer  , a gamer  , wanderer  , blogger  , an optimist  , an ultimate foodie  and a, hands down, fangirl  . I love reading books  , writing  , music  , photography and traveling.
I am a nurse by profession  who is also a copy editor  and a freelance writer  . I enjoy learning how to play musical instruments  and learning various languages  . I am crazy, loud, spontaneous, free-spirited and most of the time, a klutz.
Eren Asentista a.k.a. Eray, 23, female, from Dumaguete City, Philippines. My personality...it's complicated. :D Believe me, you wouldn't want to know who I am. Hahaha! XD
I am currently watching...
In the coming days, I plan to watch...
In Asian Entertainment, I fancy...
(This is still lacking, but this is more or less it. LOL! I will most likely be updating this in the future to accommodate my growing list of biases but check em out!)
 
The things that I want to do before I die are the following:
 An Asian cruise.
Templestay in Korea.
An African safari adventure.
Backpacking to Europe.
Traveling through the European railways.
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In circles...
Tuesday, October 23, 2007 @ 3:09 PM |
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Whoever said, "worries are just 'a piece of cake' for tough people", I agree. But can someone convince me about this right now because i think I can't convince myself any further. I never thought being puzzled was this hard? Hmmmp! It's as if I didn't go through something harder than this during the course of the 19 years of my existence in this world. But still I feel as if, well... so uneasy about the whole thing. Maybe you too are puzzled about what I'm talking about. But as much as I would like to tell you about it, I want to as much as possible, keep it within myself. You may be thinking I'm crazy. Well, I maybe crazy for feeling this way, but I never wanted to. Who would even think? I never imagined this to happen for the next one thousand years, talking as if I would still be alive by then.
I have always been very tight about my feelings. I always manage to conceal it ever since I learned how to. Nobody would know how I really feel if I didn't tell. But I have always been transparent when I am mad about someone or something. I keep it for a while, but then after some time, it leaks... much like air in that sense! I guess, if there's something that I've learned in life, it's that one can't keep what one really feels inside, no matter how hard you try to. I've tried that a thousand times before, but I was never successful. Much to my dismay, I always end up with regrets of "what-ifs".
"What if I didn't do that?"
"What if I haven't said that?"
or totally the opposite...like
"What if I did that?"
"What if i've said that?"
or maybe
"What if I never allowed that chance to pass me by?" (if that was really a chance?)
I've always lived with the statement, "I'm better off alone." Perhaps, It will take a long time to change this perspective, but nobody knows when that will happen, and the thruth is..I'm not even sure if it will happen.
Whew! I never thought though girls are prone to dilemma's. Haha! I'm just kidding. I just needed to humor myself. That's how life is. the tougher you get, the more problems you face.
I know reading this post would definitely give a headache to those who are actually reading it, and I'm sorry for being such a klutz. Hahaha! My appology for being so pathetic and for being so...whatever...you know the words! I just felt the need to rant today and to share my thoughts.
Hopefully, I'll be back tomorrow with a better post. And I'll be my old self again. I just hope everything turns out well during the "judgement day". It's adding to the bulk of my worries, nevertheless, I will be fine as long as I'll pass.
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