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My life has been very much pre-occupied for the last four months since June of this semester (actually, since ncm 101 started.) I can't believe I'm still here though. Being able to say this is a relief for my part in one of my outlets, what else? Of course, the cyberworld. I've been half asleep and half awake these past few days. Half asleep because my level of consciousness has readily decreased after using it up so much thinking for quite some time now, my energy is down the drain, and I've got no choice but to stay awake literally until wee hours of the morning to make sure I still have my life on track. Of course, the way I planned my life to be for the coming months.

Reality check, even though it's not yet sinking in to me yet, I'm afraid I can't keep up with the expectations of the people around me. Way back when I was still younger, whenever I accomplished something at school or with anything, it always made me happy. And of course, it made my parents happy too! That was a good thing. Because that was what I always wanted. I loved the feeling it gave me. It was not as if i was pressured to be the best that I could be. There was encouragement and love. And a little pressure for the most part. But I think it was able to help me a lot in the past, because I learned how to work harder and I lived with it.

People say that when you grow up, your responsibilities become bigger. And that's a very big YES in my part. Haha! I've been feeling that for the last 2 years. Although we learn to live with pressure around us, sometimes, it gets way overboard. And that's pretty much true. Recently, I've been thinking about basically everyhting that I went through lately, and I'm like, "when is this supposed to end?" It's taking a toll on my health. I wouldn't be surprised if I end up getting sick again and again. To what is this all coming down to? Poor me. (Laughs...) But then, I have to be strong. My good guy bud in high school said this...
"THE WEAK SHALL DIE AND THE STRONG SHALL LIVE."
Very inspiring for me right now. That's the spirit. I have to be really strong these days.

My life has been very much pre-occupied for the last four months since June of this semester (actually, since ncm 101 started.) I can't believe I'm still here though. Being able to say this is a relief for my part in one of my outlets, what else? Of course, the cyberworld. I've been half asleep and half awake these past few days. Half asleep because my level of consciousness has readily decreased after using it up so much thinking for quite some time now, my energy is down the drain, and I've got no choice but to stay awake literally until wee hours of the morning to make sure I still have my life on track. Of course, the way I planned my life to be for the coming months.

Reality check, even though it's not yet sinking in to me yet, I'm afraid I can't keep up with the expectations of the people around me. Way back when I was still younger, whenever I accomplished something at school or with anything, it always made me happy. And of course, it made my parents happy too! That was a good thing. Because that was what I always wanted. I loved the feeling it gave me. It was not as if i was pressured to be the best that I could be. There was encouragement and love. And a little pressure for the most part. But I think it was able to help me a lot in the past, because I learned how to work harder and I lived with it.

People say that when you grow up, your responsibilities become bigger. And that's a very big YES in my part. Haha! I've been feeling that for the last 2 years. Although we learn to live with pressure around us, sometimes, it gets way overboard. And that's pretty much true. Recently, I've been thinking about basically everyhting that I went through lately, and I'm like, "when is this supposed to end?" It's taking a toll on my health. I wouldn't be surprised if I end up getting sick again and again. To what is this all coming down to? Poor me. (Laughs...) But then, I have to be strong. My good guy bud in high school said this...
"THE WEAK SHALL DIE AND THE STRONG SHALL LIVE."
Very inspiring for me right now. That's the spirit. I have to be really strong these days.